Thursday, April 24, 2008

Day Dreams

Well, graduation is less than four weeks away and I have been putting the finishing touches on the Senior’s scrapbook. We took pictures this Monday and I’ve got the invitations sent off. Baccalaureate is on May 4 and next Monday I’ll look for a dress and shoes for the services. It seems like I’m on top of all of the preparations. Just one thing.... this incredibly sad feeling is starting to come over me. It comes out of no where and then WAM!! I’m in tears. I’ve been so wrapped up in the planning that I just now am beginning to realize that my baby is about to leave home. This is my second time to send a boy into the world to become a Man, when my first son left home I was hell to live with. I really want to hold it together until after graduation and then maybe I’ll be to busy with the move to feel the full brunt of the boys leaving. Going through his baby pictures is what started the warm feeling in my heart and the tears just started flowing. I can remember.... like it was just yesterday, scooping him out of the bath tub, dripping wet, covered in bubbles and wrapping him so tight in a warm tarry bath towel. He would try to wiggle out form my arms and I would just hold him tighter and laugh and say you’re my bug in a rug. Its memories like this that seem to be finding their way into my day dreams lately. It wasn’t to long ago when he was building skate boards and mini bikes in the garage and now he’s changing the oil on his little red sports car. For all of you Moms that have already been though this before you would probably agree that it seems like it all went buy to fast. For all of you Moms that are still scooping your little ones out of the bath tub, hold on to them a little longer tonight for me.